I did start out writing this diary in hopes that this could be where I place all my positive thoughts. I quickly realized that thinking that way makes it harder to stay positive for frequent periods of time. I notice that if I vent with my typed words, I am able to get alot of anger and frustrations out. I seem to be happier this way. I'm sorry to all of you who read me that complaints are all you hear sometimes. But it works out better for me anyway. I swear I am not a miserable nothing. I am not someone who never smiles. I smile alot, more often than not. Lately I have been feeling pretty good, and balanced. It's all about balance. It's just hard to see that sometimes.